Everyday things every day

Friday, 28 August, 2026

It’s been a month of getting medical stuff done and I guess I’m OK with that. My bionic era awaits.

First my surgery, then my oncology follow-up, then my lymphoedema and, in there somewhere bloodwork and X-ray. Next comes the optometrist and my radiotherapy follow-up, and to see my GP about this and that my new oncologist doesn’t need to know about – September, here I come. Life is a medical storybook, ticking off more of those boxes.

In December 2023 I went with my son and his girlfriend to the annual Christmas concert at St Anne’s Anglican Church, one of my Toronto Christmas traditions. My friend, Angela, was in their fantastic choir and had introduced me to the concerts many years ago. The church, built in 1907,  was a breathtaking one. Not only was the exterior a lovely Byzantine-inspired design, and the interior full of colourful mosaic work, it also had many paintings around the eaves. These paintings were the only religious works of some of the Group of Seven, Canada’s most prominent artists. It’s hard to describe how stunning the whole was. I have a video.

This is written in the past tense because in early June 2024, a scarce six months later, the church, a National Historic Site of Canada, was on fire and the interior was completely gutted. I went to look at it shortly afterwards, and it pretty much broke my heart. This month, they are holding an exhibition in that space, completely open to the sky. The front of the domed church is intact. Three walls are standing but badly damaged. I went with my niece to take a look. I can’t say the art pieces inside were impressive, but the whole experience left me very emotional. It had been pouring all morning, so I wasn’t sure we’d get there, but I set out anyway. I arrived pretty wet and waded through deep puddles in the parking lot to get into the site. I’ll include some of the things that were on display. A very nice touch is a bread oven made from salvaged bricks. Adrianna and I had a small pita each with the very good za’atar dip made by the baker.

Gladstone Avenue, Toronto. St Anne’s on the left and the old Cadbury factory on the right (Now Mondelez)
The entrance to the exhibit
From the street, it looks almost normal, but the doors are covered in wood and the beautiful middle dome, pictured here, is gone. The church was inspired by the magnificent Early Byzantine church Hagia Sophia (532-537AD) in Istanbul
From the back, inside the gutted church, the real story. The walls are wrapped in white, with red tape. There were three hanging objects that were super heavy. Couldn’t move them. Also a giant nest. I need to find out more about each highly symbolic piece
Art piece, Pushmepullyou, was very Pompeii
One of two wooden sculptures on the old doors. Reminding me of a bishop
This chair was saved
Saved mosaic

I got over to Fiesta Farms to shop. Prices are high but the selection of herbs and vegetables are what sent me there. A long time ago, Fiesta Farms was a reasonably-priced heavily Italian supermarket and I’d go to save money and find some good Italian choices. These days I can’t afford much of what they put on their shelves. It’s become elite. Long gone are the days of $2 locally made panettone. Anyway, I walked there and back, and that’s A Big Deal.

Intrigued by mini artichokes and some zucchini blossoms near the entrance. Didn’t buy
Kombucha choices abound
Beets as big as your head
Many, many soups. One sounded good enough to imitate — beet and ginger. Will try it!
The entrance to Fiesta Farms
Across the road, the nursery version – Fiesta Gardens. Once my plant shop of choice
On the bakery counter. Am I the only one who doesn’t love cannoli?
The herbs and vegetables always look amazing and this trip I noticed almost everything was from Ontario or Canada. This will change when the cold weather hits and everything is US or Mexico. I can guarantee Mexico will be favoured. The boycott of US goods is everywhere. Feel bad for the farmers, though

Meanwhile, I’m walking in the neighbourhood again – it’s the easy option, and now that the weather will start to cool down, I will pick some other neighbourhoods to be dropped off in for some different vistas and a different vibe, no matter how subtle. Making that list.

On the way to Fiesta Farms, a lawn campaign poster bonanza
Are others aware of the French language schools in Canada? This one is a Catholic elementary

Vintage cars seem popular
An enormous and healthy silver birch tree a street just north of here
At the Portuguese supermarket, I was interested to see how clean and sanitised the pig trotters are compared to Ridley Road Market in Hackney. These won’t offend anyone at first glance!
I hope I can find some of these ‘lantern’ sprays for the apartment this autumn
In the Italian and Portuguese neighbourhoods – this one blends them – there are always vines set up wherever residents can fit them. This one in a front garden close by
Utility (Bell) box art – everywhere. This one is close by
About a block away, this very brief stretch of road is open to bicycles only and there’s a small picnic table, a bike station, and a solar panel

I want to walk “new” neighbourhoods. I’ve lived in Toronto enough to know that there aren’t many areas that are unfamiliar. So it’s mostly a revisit. Meanwhile, I went to Chinatown and to Little Portugal so I have had a bit of a change of scenery – the main goal, along with walking, which I’m trying to extend. I’d better start that list. Where first?

After a long break, I went for pho again. I need to try some new places. This is Xe Lua in Chinatown
In Little Portugal
Little Portugal intersection. We had a huge rainstorm that day and the skies are bleak
After leaving St. Anne’s, spotted this familiar rooster in the heart of Little Portugal
In Little Portugal. Crab apples, anyone? Whoa
Wall art in Little Portugal

This week, the restaurant went on holiday. Everyone is gone for a couple of weeks. It’s quiet! We’ve been asked to water the plants while they’re away, and it sounds like we might get a meal in return. Finally!

Coming in from a walk. The tables are gone and the chairs are housing plants for now

There’s been a fair amount of rain, and I’ve had appointments, so I’m trying to make the most of being at home. I started a program to combat my pre-diabetes and felt that, while I have a lot of diabetes knowledge from my teaching days, I needed a refresher-update. If I learn only one new thing a week, I will consider it a good move. The provincial health insurance covers the program, so it’s free. There’s homework each week, followed by a one-hour Monday morning touch-in about challenges and triumphs and a place to ask questions. Chief takeaways so far – An overnight fast of 12 hours (max 16) is recommended (and I’ve noticed I feel healthier in the morning now, so triumph.) Snacking means insulin is pushed into the system, so I have been doing that less often. This week was about exercise. This will be a tough one but if I can walk 20 minutes a day, especially during ‘fasting’ times it could make a difference. If you’re in Ontario, BC or Alberta, look here.

Not just walking. Also getting some sewing in and, looking at my latest, considering a new doll
Wondering about the Old Man? He was spotted in his now-flourishing garden, squatting with some support. Envious of that! My knees definitely won’t let me
The back patio is all packed up for the season. I’m a bit sad, especially if we get a meal – I’d have liked to have had that backyard woodfire smoked version of things

These are my everyday hours. Nothing to shout about but real. Now to decide what to do next. My work hours continue to drop, and that isn’t going to change any day soon, if ever. On my list,  anyway – a couple of medical appointments (stop, already!), a visit to a different neighbourhood but also doing a bit of street art photography in Little Portugal – I simply couldn’t cover the whole area, two out-of-the-way eating places, a new doll – meaning a visit back to the fabric recycling place or a thift store or two, a visit to a historical site I haven’t been before – need to figure that one out soon since the next open day is coming up. Every day isn’t full of excitement, but I’m doing my best. I’d just love a companion for some of it. Seeking a foodie and a flaneur friend. You in?

Breast Cancer Journey: Six-month check up

Thursday, 20 August, 2026

Women’s College Hospital has a Transition (After Cancer Treatment) Clinic and that’s where I was headed. This date was stamped in my memory as where I’d get answers, six months after my last mammogram in February and about nine months after my last oncology clinic visit. I’m not exactly sure why some people report having their follow-ups (including routine scans) every three months, but at my hospital group it’s every six months and no routine tests other than the yearly mammogram.

Anyway, I was looking forward to this visit and, all in all, I was happy with it. Yay.

I got there a little early and went in right away. A nurse practitioner saw me for most of the time I was there, during about forty minutes of questions from both of us – duly recorded and answered. No stone left unturned. Another yay.

The doctor came in briefly – Carol Townsley. I liked her for the ten or fifteen minutes she was there.

Takeaways – I’ll have an X-Ray for my hip and thigh pain; Go ahead with my ultrasound (ordered by my doctor’s office) for the lower abdominal pain; Repeat the bone density scan to see what therapy I might need to avoid osteoporosis (my hormone blockers and cancer treatments weaken bones); Get some bloodwork to check in on my Potassium and Ferritin levels. It’s not a lot, yet a lot. I chose not to do the lab work and X-Ray that same day – because it’s a lot.

So far so good. Another mammogram in February, followed by another check-up at this same clinic. The doctor told me that any time I had concerns or questions, to call in and she’d meet with me by phone. I looked forward to this visit and was happy with it. Almost every cancer survivor you might meet will tell you that after treatment with its intense and regular scrutiny, it’s normal to feel at sea and scared. It’s a long stretch of six months now, but I don’t feel abandoned and that’s a good thing.

Who I am now. Or is it? I have to say I love how the beauty feature on edit ignores my after-cataract-surgery eye bags, and that angles help. This is not a deflection but the whole truth. The long curls are gone (not missing them, surprisingly), and the boobs are a whole other story; my inner thoughts aren’t very different. I’m still me.

Index of all my Breast Cancer Journey Posts

Not focussed…YET

Wednesday, 12 August, 2026

Today is a sit-at-the-laptop day so a good one to get started on the latest. Why the title? Well, I work on a mental health charity site (ssshhh, those who know who I mean). As part of our work, the charity gives us 45-minute monthly meetings where we discuss our mental health. Yes, the work can be emotionally challenging. We chat and share concerns and triumphs, but we also get a mini lesson on mental wellness. This comes from one. Whatever you think you are not getting done or right, say it but add the word yet.

I had my eye surgery follow-up yesterday. All is well. My right eye (the first) is noticeably less focussed than my left. My laconic surgeon assured me that this was normal and that in a month I could get glasses to correct my distance vision. Looking forward to that. I’m really good at seeing both sides of things. I can see my laptop screen and read most things – maybe I need a weak pair of reading glasses for that very tiny stuff too – but I can now see other things. What things? My wrinkles! And, wow, soft focus was good for one thing – I thought I was more attractive than this. Why did no one tell me? My vanity is in overload, so my next job is getting over it. I can’t get over it…YET.

Inert but annoying tools in the eye surgeon’s office

After the visit, I thought I might see Robin and send a package back to its sender. It was hot as I wandered through Kensington Market, which ends/begins at College Street where the surgeon was. I need basil. Kensington Market is a hippy throwback. It’s full of vintage clothing stores, street art, and eclectic places to eat. I’ve walked through here so many times over so many years and seen the changes.

The land was first purchased by George Taylor Denison (for whom an area street is named) and a home was built for him in 1815. The Denison estate was subdivided in the 1850s, and thirty years later, houses were built for the Irish and Scottish immigrant labourers coming to Toronto. The housing, some of which still stands, was built in the style of Victorian architecture row houses. (Must check that out, on Wales Street). That style persists. After the Irish and Scottish, other immigrant populations followed in waves. In the early twentieth century came Eastern European Jewish immigrants and some Italians, and like most immigrant areas, there was dense population and poverty. As the immigrants thrived, they moved within the area but to more space, better housing conditions, and opportunities to create storefront businesses. The market was born. The wider area was packed with tailors, furriers and bakers. There were 60,000 Jews by the 1920s and 1930s and over 30 local synagogues. When I arrived in Toronto and eventually found the area where I lived in the early 70s for a while, the area was still considered a Jewish market. When I arrived to live there briefly, the Jewish population dominated. They lived in the houses east of Spadina and above the stores in spacious apartments. Stores along Spadina and into the market were full of the immigrants’ preferred goods, jobbers, and in the market Eastern European food. I remember the crates of live chickens and the bustle of people buying their weekly food. In those days Saturdays had open air stalls on the street, only seen here now on special days in the warmer weather. The Jews moved out to the suburbs, and the immigrants from the Azores moved in and spread farther west, creating Little Portugal along Dundas Street West. They were followed by those from the Caribbean and East Asia. This was now an even more incredibly diverse community. During the Vietnam War, the American ‘draft dodgers’ and political objectors had arrived in Toronto, settling here and further east. The market took on and has pretty much maintained its hippy, bohemian air. The East Asians, particularly the Chinese, gradually took over the main street of Spadina Avenue, which borders Kensington Market and created a new Chinatown, the older one being closer to Yonge Street – the centre of Toronto. Then came even more immigrants, from Central America, Somalia, Ethiopia, Sudan, Iran, Vietnam, Chile and other global trouble spots. In the market, the choice of food and goods was, and remains, beyond eclectic. While the offerings in the market are ethnically diverse, the Latin Americans have a very strong presence, especially on Augusta Avenue. Enough tacos to build another CN Tower. Confession: all those immigrant waves might be slightly mixed up/out of order, there were so many, but I did my best. It’s eclectic!

The market’s architectural style hasn’t changed much. In the 60s the community escaped a plan to tear down the Victorian houses and replace them with modern apartment buildings, but there are a few higher-rise modern loft-style buildings at the edges of the market area.

Typical market Victorian style house


The Latin American and Mexican population of Toronto can buy all their home favourites in Kensington Market, especially on Augusta Avenue
Millions of pupusas have been eaten here. This store is a mainstay
Cheese Magic. A pricier cheese boutique and one store that’s hung on longer than most
The old, the new, and some cheap cigarettes (perhaps’Reservation cigarettes’ or ‘native smokes.’) I’m not sure. there are heavy rules involved, and they’re the sort of thing vendors hide under the counter.
Ontario peach season is here. My favourite pie this side of the Atlantic. No, I haven’t had any this year. Worth breaking the diet for? Hmm

There’s been gentrification here. No space to write about all the changes, but notably, there’s now one butcher remaining and one fish shop, where before there were at least three of each. The butcher of yesterday was a bustling and low-priced Eastern European meat market. The counters were piled high with smoked sausages, and ham hocks, and the smell of smoked and fresh meat hung in the air. For $2 I could buy a hock and make meals that stretched over two or three days. Those days are gone. The butcher now has much higher priced, fancier, fare and I can’t smell a thing.

In this spot there was a cheap butcher until this one took over. Not Cheap, Not At All
Sanagan’s has a British butcher, so they make these things. I’ve tried them all and 😕👎🏼

There could be chapters on Kensington Market (future focus!), but I needed to move on, if only to find shade. At the only remaining greengrocers (of the original) half dozen, I needed to buy basil, only to remember that the entryway stairs were going to be a problem. I’d already abandoned the idea of buying a samosa in the Indian restaurant due to the entry stairs. Samosa and chai is such a nice breakfast. Not today. I found the side entrance (no stairs) where a Chinese-speaking lady cleared a space for me and carried my walker up to the level where I could find the basil. I found it and some nice arugula (nothing like the UK rocket – different species here), paid, and then the same lady helped me down and out to the street. Yay for kindness. No photos of the store, that’s a miss.

Thwarted by the samosa and chai miss, I thought some dim sum might work instead. There was a place near the shop I wanted to visit, so I headed down to Dundas Street and over to Spadina Avenue. I found street and van art along the way. The market has a lot, no favourites here. I miss seeing good street art everywhere.

Tripping

It was such a hot day on Kensington Avenue. I love that they’re sweeping – gave me Italy vibes
Chinatown main intersection. By now I was wilting. Where the Rexall is was once a burlesque theatre

Dim sum was calling and I arrived to find another high step to get into the bakery. Ha. I made it in and ordered carefully. This is cash only and I had just $10. My order of chive and shrimp dumpling and a bottle of water came to $9.30. Just made it. Dim sum cost double of when I lived here with Robin, in an alley off Chinatown. While I was eating I remembered that the parcel return depot also had four steps. That’s that then. Robin called to say he couldn’t meet me, no shock, and I could hear he was in the shop almost next door to the parcel return. I was mid-dumpling and cool rest break, so I didn’t ask him to help. Another day. Instead I went to the Chinese supermarket that Robin’s apartment overlooks and bought what I needed.

Close to my dim sum goals in Chinatown

My shrimp and chive dumplings – very clean and clear
Toronto loves a Chinese bakery. Many cheap ‘treats’ but a far cry today from the 3 for a dollar offerings of yesterday
Purchases – newly favourite brand of fresh kimchim and I can never resist the ‘seafood’ mushrooms – Bunapi-shimeji

I’d visited the drugstore a bit earlier in the week. With my rides back from Chinatown and then this little visit, I conquered the TTC three times this week. Go me!

Posters you want to eat. I saw a UK TikTok with Guinness gravy a few days ago – want! As for ice cream cake, I may have to break my diet and try – which one?
A cool break after shopping at the Portuguese store. Field Trip wins again – a macchiato and a cheddar and chive scone. Bring back the Zaatar but save me from my love of a good scone
The Paradise theatre on Bloor Street. All the offbeat content you want. This ties into my Kensington Market tour, since I associate these rep cinemas with hippy days in Toronto. That vibe prevails. Longer story here for another time
My pharmacy has that old-fashioned Englishy feel but I miss that unique smell of Boots Chemists (antiseptic and ointments?)
Ethiopian convenience store near the station. All the gold-plated stuff you desire….(listening, Mr President?)
Sunk! Someone put temptation a few hundred metres away from me, right opposite the station. Hide my eyes
Just in front of the subway station entrance. Noticed it for the first time (new vision?)
The subway handicap entrance and I are old friends now
Silently ranting about the TTC bus’s lack of space for strollers and such. No one can pass

Finally, I did a baked beans test this week. John had brought a UK tin with him, and we never did do the comparison. Time to do it. Thoughts – the Canadian beans had a slightly deeper spiced flavour and weren’t as saucy. They might have been a tiny bit sweeter, although the label puts them as equal for sugar content. For me, the UK version wins, but ask me again tomorrow. It was a narrow margin. Need to get the US version to see how it fares.

Heinz beans comparison and taste test. UK on the left, Canada on the right

I did take photos of  the old man’s garden but won’t include them. For two days now, a helper has been watering and weeding. Those vines are climbing even higher. If I had wings or better legs or whatever, I’d scale that fence at night and become a veggie burglar.

Not ready…YET.

Ticking the ennui boxes

Sunday, 26 July, 2026 to
Sunday, 9 August, 2026

This blog is going to span a bunch of days with not much going on, but photos were being stubborn and I wasn’t able to upload all of a sudden. Life!

This coming Tuesday is my son’s birthday. Robin will be 46, and that’s surprising. Somehow. He was born on a day with record rainfall. We couldn’t see across the road; the rain was so heavy, and the air seemed green.  When I was teaching childbirth preparation to couples and later to teachers, I learned about a study where older women were interviewed about their children’s births. Interestingly, even decades later and with other memories getting fainter, these women were able to tell the stories of the labour and birth of each child. Astonishing, but that’s how strong an impact. However, I won’t use this space to describe mine beyond saying it was a bit complicated, I was too isolated, and I was completely overwhelmed by the fact that I was doing this aided by what I saw as the legion of sisters who had gone before. Robin was tall, ‘almost all of it lungs,’ they told me, with a rather shocking head circumference. Still true, judging by every hat seller’s reaction. His fat red cheeks named him for me right then, minutes after birth.

I hope to see Robin on Monday. Last Monday I had lunch with teacher friends I’ve known for decades – they were keen, so was I. On Tuesday I had dinner with my niece – we were looking forward to it and sent texts back and forth. On Friday I had an appointment in one of the hospitals near Robin. We’d talked about meeting for a snack. All week there was silence. On Thursday, I took the plunge and sent a message.

Followed by more silence. Autism is interesting. Shall I take bets on whether tomorrow’s meeting happens? I do hope so. So far we’ve agreed on the time, more or less, but my question about where goes unanswered.

(Update) It happened. The visit lasted about 45 minutes. No surprises there. Success though.

My niece and I ate at my favourite downtown spot, Chef’s House, for the Summerlicious menu. First time I’ve had steak in a loooong time
Birthday lunch for himself. I found and made a recipe for sfoglietta frolla, then made a caprese salad. Nostalgia

Yesterday was my dad’s birthday. He would have been 101. He was the man everyone loved and admired. There’s a lot that I could say about him and, believe it or not, I am writing my life story. So I shall save it for there. (Will I ever get back to it?) I spent his last months with him, and it was both a privilege and an enormous challenge—meanwhile, a tribute on Facebook.

If anyone attributed to me even one of those things, I’d be very, very lucky. My mother would have been 102 next Sunday. When I was growing up, I thought her very bohemian, a liberal thinker. She’d gone to art school. It made me feel special among my friends, whose parents were far more traditional and usually a bit older. Looking back, I know she was a woman who knew her own mind, and this made some people bristle a bit, but I wouldn’t be the free thinker I am without that early influence. There are days I miss my parents in a very painful way. Thankful to have had them. I know too many people who have had terrible or absent parenting. I just hope that’s not what Robin will say of me one day.

Mum blowing bubbles with Robin. For his birthday this year I got him some new ones
Dad and me on the boat across to the Isle of Wight. 1948? I was a year old before I could walk

The garden next door is growing at a crazy rate. The same is true for the downstairs herb garden. The amount of rain and some very hot spells have made everything grow at quite a speed.

The restaurant herb garden is flourishing this year. It’s tough to get in there and pick anything, but I can’t resist – especially that purple basil
The growth in just weeks is phenomenal. We thought the garden would be minimal this year and now look
Compared to what I put in the last post

I went for a blood test one day. The lab I chose is on Bathurst Street. It’s a really good snapshot of how Toronto has and will continue to change. The street is named for Henry Bathurst who organised migration from the British Isles to Canada after the War of 1812. He never set foot in Canada. Bathurst starts at the lake and continues north, where it was once called Crookshank’s Lane (some lane!) its name till 1870. Somewhere to the north of me there’s an original (restored) tollkeeper’s cottage. I’ll add it to my list of places to see. The small area I walked along was originally just a muddy trail. Bloor Street (south of me) is one of Toronto’s major dividing streets (along with Yonge Street, which runs north and south). Along Bloor Street at Bathurst, many Jewish immigrants once lived, but there’s not really much sign of that now. The Jews moved much further north but many have clung to Bathurst even then. Later this was a Caribbean area, and that too has faded, although the bakery in the station concourse sells some of the best Jamaican beef patties. There are many different ethnic restaurants in the area now and some small stores. On a cooler day I can take more photos.

How things change from the Toronto I once knew. Bloor and Bathurst

The intersection before

Streetcar with manga cladding heading towards Bathurst subway station

It may not surprise you to know that most of my walks are food-themed. Along the way or at the journey’s end, there will be food. Sometimes it’s just window-shopping. My ride dropped me at a very fancy small supermarket, Summerhill Market, where I shopped with my eyes and claimed a free cookie, a perk for the newsletter subscribers. I now think I will go back and actually buy something, ready-made, superfluous to needs, and hopefully delicious.

On this stretch of Bathurst, south of Dupont and before you reach the subway station, things are bougie.  Besides the fancy supermarket, there are gift shops and studios. The area up here is called Seaton Village. It’s where the Harry-Meghan love nest was. Definitely catering to the well-healed residents. This isn’t fancy-fancy Toronto, but it’s up there.

On Bathurst Street. I didn’t go in to help out. Is this a nod to the Caribbean past?
Old-style Toronto on Bathurst Street. Steven’s Grocery and Flowers, 990 Bathurst St
Summerhill Market on Bathurst Street is food porn, or at least eye candy. It reminds me of Spar, as do the prices
I miss the year-round selection of flowers that I could afford to buy weekly in London. Toronto florists have nothing like the same knack, and the prices scare me

Toronto hosted six FIFA World Cup games. Our stadium is small, but many loved it because it made it feel more old-style and intimate, with fans closer to the field. The city felt festive, and I wished I could attend the fan fests and celebrations. Many home fans visited their teams’ games, and since Toronto has so many immigrants, they lent their enthusiasm. It was sad to see it all end, but this has definitely been a boost to home-grown football.

They haven’t taken down the FIFA signs yet. This is in Chinatown
Random: Oddly, a police station has cropped up in the food court at the local mall. That’s a first!
A corner of the back patio on an off day

There’s a buzz downstairs with the restaurant patio booked solidly for outdoor dining. We’ve had some wacky weather where guests had to be shepherded indoors, but for the most part things are hopping and every day they’re open I enjoy cracking the bathroom window open to hear the chatter and smell the woodfire. Makes me wonder if I’ve ever shared their Instagram page for some gorgeous photos.

Wellesley subway station, gateway to the (Gay) Village

I finally had my second cataract surgery. I knew what to expect this time but still found my anxiety mounting once I was in the operating room. On the other hand, healing has been easier. My eye isn’t even scratchy this time. I’ve also noticed this eye has clearer vision than the last. I shouldn’t be surprised, since it always was the stronger one, but it’s still strange. Something to ask the doctor at my check-up on Tuesday. And this feels like another chapter, a nice feeling. It’s done! Next, an eye exam for distance glasses – I’m not sure when.

I went to see a friend’s retirement building. I don’t quite know what to say. It’s incredible and if I can find my way to afford it, I’m definitely considering it. I now feel superstitious so will hold off further comments. I’m visiting her again this week so maybe then I will dare to say  more.

August will be a busy month. I’m starting a lifestyle program. In fact, I’ve begun a lot of required preparation (like the bloodwork and some reading, even some diet changes). Group sessions start tomorrow (10 August), and I’ll fill you in. Tuesday is my eye check-up; next week is my oncology follow-up, and the following week my lymphoedema follow-up. It’s a hot summer now, and I’m taking things slowly when I can.  I want my life to be more than a medical marathon!

Let’s do it!

20-20

Monday, 15 June, 2026

On the subject of 20-20, I looked back at my first post of that year. I remember typing it. Lockdown hadn’t been announced yet, but there were quiet rumours of an epidemic that could become a pandemic. That didn’t sound possible at the time. Nevertheless, I had high hopes for the year. It was 20-20, perfect vision, after all. What could go wrong?

The concept of ‘home’ came to me again today. I am following a couple on social media. They are from the USA and left to find a different life last year – they’ve been in Mexico some years back, and recently the UK, Spain, Crete, and Holland. They want to live in the UK, but that’s not easy. They do have a  three-year digital nomad visa to live in Spain so, after some stays in these other countries, they are in Valencia for their three years, still hoping for an entry way to the UK. Inevitably, they get a lot of comments – some hateful – from mostly US and UK followers asking what they can possibly see in the UK, how they are traitors who will regret their decision, and so on. People don’t get it. Somehow they think they should. Oh, I’ve been there. I am there.

So let’s talk about me. Because I’m trying. Really. What makes us love a place? Honestly, who knows? We can trot out all the reasons we love a place, or a person, but there will always be things we don’t love about them. After living in London, Toronto, Southern California (LA area), and San Francisco, and travelling a bit in Europe, I can say that there are things I love and don’t love about everywhere I’ve been. However, there are constants, the things that a place must have for me to love – or like – them at all. In my introspective way, I follow a handful of people from Canada and the US who have relocated to London, and an equal number of people who have moved from the UK to Toronto. Fascinating. The North Americans in London interest me with their mixed reports of falling in love versus pure confusion-frustration over the UK way of doing things. They report missing things from home, often junk food items that make me go ewww. But I get it. Now, the Brits living in Toronto are another breed. They’re starstruck. The skyscrapers, the summer (and winter) sunshine, the ‘nice factor.’ They love their sparkling condos, their mod cons.  They’re young and stride around the city- they’re used to walking places – checking out all the boogie coffee shops and eateries. Toronto is next-level luxury to them. What I came to appreciate was that the things that impressed them were not the things I wanted. I get it. But it’s fun to watch them brim with joy in a Dollarama, gape at the produce in Farm Boy (and yes at the prices too). I keep hoping their enthusiasm will rub off, and try to see this place through (their) new eyes. I have a cousin whose middle name is Bitter. Yes, that one. She smirks at me and then gathers her bitterness, telling me that I wouldn’t love East London if I’d lived there as long as she had, if I’d endured the hard life she had no choice to live. Once when I was staying in Liverpool, my dad visited on business. He screwed up his nose and asked me how I could love being there when it was so poor, so dirty. I told him, honestly, that the things he saw as ugly were the things I loved. I couldn’t help it.

Am I wearing rose-coloured glasses? Am I romanticising? Does it matter? Is my cousin right? Honestly, I understand her history is longer, but no matter how you paint it, I honestly did and still love my childhood home even as I know I had my eyes open about how ‘poor’ it was. (We were never truly poor, but you may know what I mean.)  Is the grass greener? There’s that, but it’s also different, and different can be a lot of fun.

Since I last wrote anything, there’s been a gap because last Tuesday I had my first cataract surgery and, since it makes some people squeamish but I want to document it, it follows on the next page.

Meanwhile, some photos to document what else I’ve been filling my time with.

At the corner of Dupont and Ossington are some large local Ontario stone boulders where people can sit. I looked but can’t find any explanation
Ever entertained by watching kitchen prep going on at the side of the house. It was a gorgeous day
After a failed attempt last year, when I bought the wrong size, put my Ikea duvet cover on the bed. It feels good.
Inside the Filosophy coffee shop, there’s a chalkboard which is fun to read
Iced matcha and a cheese and chive scone from Filosophy. So far Road Trip is the scone champion. Patio season!
Made a new doll to beat my ennui. Even managed to complete it with my recovering eye
Toronto is hosting six FIFA World Cup games. People are excited and it’s far more popular than my ‘roommate’ supposed it would be. Yesterday we passed the Fan Fest area.. This is all I could capture. ‘The World in a City’

Friday photo:

At the back, the Old Man’s helper is hard at work. Since this photo, there’s a new addition. Some poles have been erected near the fence. Things are growing

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